nothing much to do....>L<

moody Janice....
what happen to myself...
this few days many things happen...
i cant tell or will make it worst....

i feel so depress...
what to do for myself is.... keep all my things in my heart...
just ignore...
wish that gods can LOVEs me and ConCERN me more...

Everyday i feel lonely...even i get people misunderstand...
i just be the WRONG person always....
nobody will listen the explained...
nobody know what i m thinking....

even myself, lazy to explained and duno what i m thinking....
keep silent in the house....
hugging my doollls.....
cry.........
but nobody know....

even classmate.... i really feel that i m weird to them...
they changed....
i changed.....

think back, refer back, nobody know how i m so happy in the past...
and now.....
i m not an optimistic any more....
i very lazy to fuck every one n every things...

i really don need any sympathy, it is useless....

Holiday+Working life

哈哈~I'm Back~~
那天 星期天，poteng不做工...和同学他们去Broga Hill摄影.
暂时无法放我的美美照片....~因为电脑进厂了~~
哈哈~显掉！那天我们凌晨去爬山...
超赞 的！冷冷，暗暗的，气喘的我....很努力的爬~~
它 很像 人生的路程，很多坎坷的路....很黑暗，很恐怖~
黑黑的时候爬，刺激...
还有谷陷~ 很深，掉了下去都不知道捞到尸体吗？晕~~
其实爬山 没有那么困难，最恐怖还是 下山~
我和 tang kc...一起下山...
kc 看到我们这两个母的真的 摇头~
因为我们都是第一次爬山啦，下山 更不用说，也是第一次~
那个山很斜，很怕，我用我的屁股，当做滑梯 溜下去~
屁股脏脏的....很像 lai si的pattern...因为都是 土地嘛...

哪里算是茅草山啦...很多人爬，男女老少幼，一家大小都是在那里看到的~
很热闹~ 风景很美，很漂亮，脚真的好累~！
一会到KL，累垮了~~ 等宝贝载我回家，
我们的午餐.......FullHouse....呵呵~~
烂漫叻~~ 浪漫到~~~
下雷雨~Fuck....还被闪电 吓到，啊良笑到爆！！！鸟他的.....
没有良心的家伙弄得我没有心情了~~
过后，哪里也没有什么好走的，我们就在一个韩国的coffee shop点了一个Hot Chocolate~
就将 这对恩爱的情侣 一起喝着一杯热腾腾的 巧克力 “汁” ~ 赞！！！！
就将，晚上等tang tang来一起去pasar malam....

回到拜一，做工咯...refine 回星期五的material...
你们觉得我很傻，RM400将少钱都要做，还有 OT tim....
不过真的很爽~ 看着公司的人，天太难忙忙忙~ 忙来忙去都只是忙Drawing....

拜二，老板给我们信心 去做Marrybrown在Kuching的design....
果然，Real life project are totally diffrent with school project.....
school project like to design anything that we like,with not practical......

at real life project.....always must think the material 1st then think how to built it?!
is it practical or not?
结果design出来了....老板蛮喜欢.....
因为很简单.....很acceptable....

拜三，show boss sketches, our BESt prespective......
而今天，我们show 3D了...but still under progress....
因为我不是很熟3DViz....也是画3D的一个software....
今天我们和老板他们去吃 IKEA 的食物...

说真的， 我们去那里做工都是等.....>< lunch的~~
哈哈哈~~

那里做工环境很爽~ 我喜欢~
就将~~

累

今天她哭了，我也伤心得控制自己。。。
不可以掉眼泪~~
一大早睡迟了~ 九点将醒，结果干得半条命~
很累， 我和婷婷不停的晨跑，跑上跑下....满头大汗~
累死+_+
这几天都是在他们的家过夜，拜四到拜五没有睡~~
显掉~~
很累，今晚要去wet了....哈哈~~

最近都在干七干八的功课...时间几乎不够~

我很伤心，很想哭.....为什么我还是将慢？
虽然老师赞我一两下，可是我飞不起了~~ 我很伤心~~
反省ING....

希望上天听见我在诉苦~~
也希望在天之灵的XX保佑我一切顺利~！

Wonderful movie

Transformers

Optimus Prime

Bumblebee

Just back from Mid Valley with Carmen.
Today i went to watch a wonderful MOVIE.

TRANSFORMER : REVENGE OF THE FALLEN

Not really many people, because GSC had already on 4 counter for the customer buy the ticket. My TICKET.
U can imagine that, the people still can buy the ticket....which means today is really LUCKY that NOT MUCH OF PEOPLE.

Overall, is just ok for me in term of the way they filmed it. Similar to the previous transformer, the camera are rotating everytime those robots start to transform. It is quite annoying because all those camera shot makes me dizzy. @@
And i was sitting at third row start from in front of the screen.
seem like hang my neck actually.This part so seexxxyy!!!!

However, the storyline of the transformers 2 sequel is more interesting because they added more robots and character on it. There was a balance on figthing scene between the human vs robot and robot vs robot. Moreover, there was more funny scene compare to the previous especially from the little robot and the new roommate of Sam.

The gorgeous main actress, Sam(Shia LaBeouf) is one of the attraction of the movie. The presence of him in the movie had urged people to watch his handsome and MAN look in the movie. I think no girl will deny that Shia LaBeouf which acted SAM in the movie. The actors in this movie had also tried lots of dangerous moves as this more have more explosions than before.

The Sadness in the world

What make me so upset?!
Actually i just back from China 2 weeks ago, the weather changing badly.
I knew that, many things happen when i was oversea.
But now....we can share, is just our simple heart.
I understand what i m doing now.

H1N1 is attacking our country.
Is too bad. I don like this kind of environment. This few day, my classmate has some 1 get flu.
I quite worry about it. haha><

刚才和朋友去喝茶，都长大了....做工的做工，毕业的毕业，读书的读书....
阿tang 那里刚才发生不开心的事....我真的帮不上忙, 只能默默帮她祈祷不要发生严重的事..

还有，最近我真的很想看Transformer. 超想的........不过没有机会咯...

Every 都知道who is MJ right?
Actually i m not very sad about it, bcz non of my business.
but................我真的不知道，这整晚都在听他的声音. 尤其是
“You are not Alone" 和 “We are The WORLD"
心很不舒服，睡不觉......
他真的离开了哦？
是折寿吗？
他那么有才华，就将和我们阴阳相隔哦？！

到这一分......人生真的不知道下一分秒发生什么事啊？！
我能说什么？！
就算知道明年发生什么事，说出来未必没有人相信的.....
如果我说，其实我们现在在世界末日....谁会相信？
鬼咩？！·#￥%……—*
haha....><
一定是说我CHI MA GAN的....

那天去佛堂，看了一套戏...西洋片....
只能说，很赞！
最有意义的一部电影....有机会我会Burn一片在家慢慢欣赏....

刚才啦...我去佛堂的伙食团.....好多年轻人咯...
全部嫩嫩的.....大部分是Graphic Design...
我们今天去煮晚餐，捏的板面....7 好吃！有美女看有帅哥看,吃的特别开胃！
那班学生是Tar College的....

erm.........我还是很想念他....MJ......
我哭不出.....可是流的眼泪很咸......
You are not Alone....This i know, but since this semesta.... i try to be strong without her.
cz i m not a lessbian...hahaha
anyway, thanks about last semesta she was accompany me.
and i m quite glad i have a better result.
她的开导永远 留在我的心上.
I m not Alone, i still have alot of buddy and HIM.

wow~~ the Special HIM birthday coming soon.
i had already prepare his birthday present...hehe
His special dinner i had already prepare.
everything i just want him to be a happy BOY in the world.
His 21st Birthday should be UNFORGETable DAY/Year.

I M not ALone, Same to YOU!

This is a Fate~

This is a Fate....
This is My Fate....
A scary Fate......

I have a moody mood Now.....
I dont know what am i thinking about, but i can tell myself........ This Is A FATE for u and me....
I saw the sky is Crying for me, and i fell that....... I m so Useless.....

I have a moody bad mood Now.....
I dont know what am i thinking about, but i can tell myself, I m de Looser.......
I listened the sky is Talking to me, and i fell that,..I cant do anything....


I m knowing that, why I giving them a explaination but cant help their spirit, just because this is my fate.... Not now, is really not now.......to do a ceremony.....i would like appreciate to Yng that helps me b3fore that......Explanation~~ Thanks Alot!!!!

Another, which is I received a news that...................very unhappy news, this is not available to say it out.......
This wont tell anyone of people, i just save it in my mind.....This is a Fate, nobady can change it....

I m the Useless JANICE.....This is me!

明白它们,你会发现你的人生在改变^^

人之所以痛苦，在于追求错误的东西。

如果你不给自己烦恼，别人也永远不可能给你烦恼。

因为你自己的内心，你放不下。

好好的管教你自己，不要管别人。

你随时要认命，因为你是人。

这个世界本来就是痛苦的，没有例外的。

你什么时候放下，什么时候就没有烦恼。

每一种创伤，都是一种成熟。

当你烦恼的时候，你就要告诉你自己，这一切都是假的，你烦恼什么？

根本不必回头去看咒骂你的人是谁，

如果有一条疯狗咬你一口，难道你也要趴下去反咬他一口吗？

忌妒别人，不会给自己增加任何的好处。

忌妒别人，也不可能减少别人的成就。

永远不要浪费你的一分一秒，去想任何你不喜欢的人。

得不到的东西，我们会一直以为他是美好的，

那是因为你对他了解太少，没有时间与他相处在一起。当有一天，

你深入了解后，你会发现原不是你想像中的那么美好。

这个世间只有圆滑，没有圆满的。

不要刻意去猜测他人的想法,如果你没有智慧与经验的正确判断,通常都会有错误的.

你要感谢告诉你缺点的人。

时间总会过去的，让时间流走你的烦恼吧！

不要因为小小的争执，远离了你至亲的好友，

也不要因为小小的怨恨，忘记了别人的大恩。

感谢上苍我所拥有的，感谢上苍我所没有的。

当你手中抓住一件东西不放时，你只能拥有这件东西，

如果你肯放手，你就有机会选择别的。

人的心若死执自己的观念，不肯放下，那么他的智慧也只能达到某种程度而已。

如果你能够平平安安的渡过一天，那就是一种福气了。

多少人在今天已经见不到明天的太阳，多少人在今天已经成了残废，

多少人在今天已经失去了自由，多少人在今天已经家破人亡。

恶口永远不要出自于我们的口中，不管他有多坏，有多恶

。你愈骂他，你的心就被污染了，你要想，他就是你的善知识。

你不要常常觉得自己很委曲，你应该要想，

他对我这样已经很好了，这就是修行的功夫。

世界原本就不是属于你，

因此你用不着抛弃，要抛弃的是一切的执著。

万物皆为我所用，但非我所属。

学会用理解的，欣赏的眼光去看对方，

而不是以自以为是的关心去管对方。

成熟的人不问过去；聪明的人不问现在；豁达的人不问未来。

发光并非太阳的专利，你也可以发光。

你可以用爱得到全世界，你也可以用恨失去全世界。

爱的力量大到可以使人忘记一切，却又小到连一粒嫉妒的沙石也不能容纳。

人总是珍惜未得到的，而遗忘了所拥有的。

如你想要拥有完美无暇的友谊，可能一辈子找不到朋友。